Whyyy

Okay I haven't written anything in quite some time. And right now I'm really frustrated. Like I don't understand boys. The worst part is the not knowing. If you're a guy and you like me then act like it. Text me. Don't leave me wondering because it makes me question my entire life and hate myself. If you just all of a sudden don't text me one day I'm going to overthink it and overanalyse it until I hate myself. I'm also going to think that I did something wrong and that I'm boring and you never want to talk to me again. When someone has like no self esteem such as myself you can't do these things to her. I probably sound insane but I have like a six sense for when things aren't going to work out with a guy and when he's going to text me or not. And I hate it. I wish that I had never started actually wanting to talk to guys because now I can't just sit at home and do nothing and be happy about it. I'm always thinking about him and it drives me nuts. I need a life. I hate feeling like this. And I'm sure this sounded immature and stupid but that's okay because that's just who I am.